// [P]rofile.. *

 Name : VANESSA
Nick : Shhhhhhh.....
Age : 17
Sign : pisces
Email : not telling you
MSN : not gonna tell you
Facebook: not gonna tell you too
Friendster : who uses friendster now?

// [A]dores.. *

 strawberry tart
candies.
chocolates.
jap food.
korean food.

// [L]oathes.. *

 studying. so typical right?.
.
ducks
.
lizards.

// [L]inks.. *

 zihan
kai.
Mandy.
ivann.

// [W]ishlist.. *

 a trip to japan.
a trip to thailand.
a trip to hong kong.
steamboat in hong kong.
toys.haha..

// [T]agboard.. *

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Thursday, October 15, 2009
|8:43 AM|

i have a lot of things to say today.
firstly, i want to apologise to ZH for leaving her to go eat korean food with my cousin after i kept enticing her with subway. apparently to me, korean food was more appealing. SORRY,ZH, truly i am.
secondly, i feel that XXXXXX has subconsciously influenced me.
and i am sort of looking up to her.
i feel inferior standing next to her. her silence kills me.
thanks god, emotion is expressed on her face.
i mean, if there was no emotion on the face, or she always conceal her own emotions and put up a straight face half the time. i would have not know her, as a friend.
i would just consider her cold and aloof.
i probably would also be intrigued by her.

in my class there is this girl that i don't really like.
honestly, it's not her actions or anything that she did.
it is simply because i am jealous of her.
afterall, she seem to effortlessly do well for exams.
she is one that i will feel inferior regardless of what she do.
hence, for me to be friends with her, i will have to know her out of the class.
as there will be nothing significant for me to compare with her for now.
afterall, now in school my life revolves around grades.
and i cannot stand people who puts on a facade, mask and conceal everything.
she acts like a clown and pulls people down with every intention of doing exactly that.
in the 48 law of power, she is the law that states play a sucker to catch a sucker.
that is my interpretation of her actions today.

[S]he [p]ierced``
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